Now bear with me here. The new year is all about resolutions and blah blah blah. I've had them, they don't work for me. My issue is my inability to use free time productively. During school time you had a limited amount of it, the weekends, maybe once during the weekdays. I use that time productively; I don't have much of it. But right now, I have all day long. All day. All day.
I make goals: I need to go grocery shopping, I wanna sew that skirt, make those earrings, build a website. I have more ambitions than I know what to do with. I want to write a book, paint my canvases, start doing yoga. It's exhausting, but I can't stop. So what do I do with my free time? NOTHING. I wake up late, then feel bad for wasting my morning. And then I sit on my couch and keep telling myself I'll do these things. I will, I will.
But I don't. I have so much free time that I just blow it. Completely. And that stresses me out. Everyone says "oh enjoy your time off," but I'd rather be busy. I like being busy and on the go. And the thought of graduating in the spring just stresses me more.
So I'm starting this blog with the best intentions (fingers crossed). My loveseat is a time-traveling machine. Not your cool sci-fi time-traveling machine. No no, my loveseat takes me from the early afternoon to late night. Always forward, never backward. I sit down to eat lunch and watch some day-time talk shows, and the next thing I know Craig Ferguson is on and it's 12:30 am. Having my computer and a blanket don't help. Neither does the television or the fact that it gets dark out at 4:30 pm.
So here's my new goal: everytime I sit down on this couch, I will do one productive thing. With all the technology and tutorials online, I want to better learn many software programs applicable to my major, Architecture. No more mindless hours of internet browsing, it's time to shape my laziness into something useful. Wish me luck!
there is it. calling my name...
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